The start of new horizon

Great! Da 3 hari start kuliah. Sir Ameezan still hot cam dulu. Hehe.
Semester 6, 3rd year, final year. Ada satu subjek je. Credit hours, 2.
Aku dah start masuk hostel. Kuliah tiap ari selasa, rabu dan khamis je.
So, ari khamis aku balik uma. Masuk hostel ari isnin lak.

Last night, i told him how I feel towards him.
Then today, he told me something I never expect.
Tapi takpe la, aku tetap akan stay. Sabar. :)

Anyway, friendship will always last forever right?
So, whats the harm if I carry through this.
My life is reaching to it's turning point now.
My life is changing, I am CHANGING.

7th day of boredom

Oh dear, how I wish the time will go fast enough to skip all this boredom.
As usual, daily routine of household chores, laundry, cleaning out the house bla bla bla.

Well, kemarin aku mitak tolong Ain temankan aku g balai polis chabang 4 sbb nk amek mp3 aku ngan Syawal. Aku kecik ati giler arh bile die cakap die xnk pegi sebab Npy xkasi.
Sebelum ni, aku yang slalu bawak die g mane2. Even g jumpe Npy pown aku bawak. Aku kenalkan diorang, sampai la diorang tu bahagia bercintan cintun. Ergh~

Aku kecik ati bukan sbb dia xnk temankan aku. Tapi xkan sampai tahap tu. Aku g mane2 pown ngan die je sblum ni. Npy pown tahu tu. *sigh*
Aku bukan nak ajak g tempat yang xelok pown.
Pape pown, sampai bile2 pown aku akan ingat hal ni.
Mang xcaye arh ase. Tersentap~
Only God knows how hurtful it was.

5th day of boredom

Panas!! Cuaca sememangnya panas~
Bahang mentari tuh, pergh!
Tapi aku redah gak sbb niat ikhlas nk tolong member.
Aku antar Yana stesen bas langgar, die nk balik Dungun.
Pastu jap ag aku nak kene amek Qila lak, stesen kete api wakaf bharu.
Pergh. Napela aku xleyh nak ckp TAK NAK TOLONG or TAK LEY TOLONG.
Aku xsampai ati ler bile member mitak tulun ni. Aiseyh~

Pasangan Dol lak besh2 tengah dating.
Aku lak dari pagi tunggu mamat tu mesej aku tapi xde pown.
Die xingt kat aku kowt. Hampeh tol.

Anyway, get ready tuk amek Qila nnt.
*sigh*

*sigh*

So today... Let's see, no planning ahead.
Anyway, aku puasa arini. Hurm.
Kalo aku kuar pown penat la petang nnt.
So, I'd rather stay at home and take a long nap.

That's my plan for the day. Bored as hell.

The start of boredom

OMG~
Aku da start cuti semester. Final exam semester 5 cam hampeh je.
Cuti 2 minggu ni aku nak watpe?
Takde sape kat uma~
Amy da balik UUM, Adek duk asrama. Urgh!
Wahai laptop, facebook, korang je peneman setia.

Nak kuar lepak? Ngan sape?
Si Dol balik Rantau Panjang.
Member len da balik kg. *sigh*

My boring life couldn't get any more boring eyh?
Such torture. :(
Bored to death!

I suppose..

Proudly announcing that there will be no more "love sick" blogging in my blog.. hahaha..
Cross my fingers when I'm saying "Wont be posting anymore love-related post" hihi..

So, for the start, I'll be sitting for my final exam tomorrow.. Paper Business Communication and guess what I'm doing today? Fooling around of course.. haha. Nahh, just kidding, I'm studying my butt off for this semester. I wish I'll do great.

Pleasant to hear from my best friend again, as usual, keep filling me up with her stories. Haha. I can't wait to meet her this Hari Raya. I have few problems here and there, blamed by someone and keep on the remorse like it was my own fault. Somehow I snapped back to reality, I can't keep turning back and living the guilt over and over again. It bring me NO GOOD~

Posted on my Friendster Wall "No more turning back.. It is time, to let go of the past and move on.." And that is exactly I'm going to do. :)

Twisted Truth

Aku tade m0od nak menaip sbb aku da tataw nk taip ape..
Knape? sbb aku da bosan!!!!!! Bosan bile ramai yang asek tipu aku!!
Kalo da tunang, ckp ar da tunang..
Kalo da ta sayang, jangan nak cari kesalahan aku, ckp je trus terang yang ko da ta sayang..

I hate it when everything is confusing, hipocrit and pretending!!!

Puzzled

Aku kompius ngan die. Kadang² ok, kadang² ribot.. ermmm.. Lets just see how it goes.. I love him even when he is hurting me.. Why??

My new bags

Aku jumpa blogger yang jual bag secara online. Kualiti dia amat memuaskan. Semua design lawa-lawa. Aku dah order dua items. Satu tote bag and satu agi beg galas. Tote bag tu leh la aku bawak biler pegi jalan2. Bag pack lak aku pkai tuk pi kelas. Tote bag tu Rm35, bagpack laks Rm35. Tak sabar tunggu barang tu sampai. hik2..

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18th of February 2010

Turun pagi td aku kuar ngan Along. Kitorg pegi kedai laptop untuk format laptop die. Then pegi maxis centre, ske plak aku tengok mamat kat kaunter tu ngah cakap ngan awek die, ngan badan melentok kat meja, tersnyum aku tgk. Then off to azam photo, checking out mamat hensem kat situ, pergh! cair jap. Perot tetibe lapo, heret Along pegi mkn kat food court kbmall. Makan nasik air. Sepanjang kua, aku hantar MMS kat Man tiap kali aku duk kdai maner2.

Balik uma, tido jap then kuar ngan Reza. Kitorg jalan2 kat kbmol, temankan die pegi shopping. Aku menurut langkah die yg laju. hehehe. Aku ske tengok die. Air mke die bersih je, sedap dipandang. Pastu kitorg pegi mcD wakaf che yeh, cam bese, aku order Prosperity, Reza laks mc Chicken. Meme Amerika straight la.. hahaha.. Balik je jumpe Amy ngan Eyo, Reza xsempat jumpe diowg sbb xrancang nk jumpe.. hik2.. I miss him already..

Man msg bgtahu sal gambar yg die da cucikan tuk aku. Ciap laminate lagi ha. Xsabar nk tengok. huhuhu.. Rindu arh si Man neh sbb selalu lepaks ngan die ngan Ros. Nak plak kitorg makin rapat.. Aduii, ase cam nak pegi je Johor tu.. hahahah..

Malam neh trus je on9 smpai tengah malam. Esok Amy da nak blah, i'm gonna miss her a lot.. =(

Paramore

The band is freakishly awesome!! You guys really should check it out. I never expect in a million years that someone would love this band as much as i do. Reza apparently loving it too!!! Thats great though cuz at least I have someone to share the song with. hahahaha.

The new song Brick by Boring Brick is the hottest! It have it's own twist. I love it so much.

Sunshine in my days of misery

Mari pakat kelih pakat ngadap blog huk boring ni. Tajuk hilir wak kuk ore putih tapi isi bahasa ulu klate. Nok kato bolok, nok kato hino, atah demo la belako, asalkam ambo sene ati jadi ore klate.

Male ni ambo nk bercerito segalo huk blaku recently. Selain pado berperap aley rumoh, aku tubik la jgk me'round area kg aku. Bersama huk duk peluk aku atah muto, Fizan, saim rapat aku sejak azali. Aku citer belako la ko minah tu hal kolej, hal broke up nga Razi, hal Man, hal family aku, hal Reza, dio jenis xbrapo nok dgr, skali skalo japuk jgk nok crito psl dio. huhuhu. Tapi aku tetap suko saing nga dio sapa ko tuo.

Susoh payoh aku pikul sore aku jah, ketawo suko aku kongsi nga saim2 aku. Dari hal che rose huk terluka ngan sikap laki, kepado hal Amy nga saim2 dio. Dari kongsi kebanggaan pointer Fizan, kepado hal Man huk slow2 masuk line ejah aku.

Hidup aku ni ibarat paku huk tlekat dale dinding kayu. Mulo2 paku bersinar tidop adow karat, teguh kukuh kayu huk tidok reput dimakan anai2. Sejak dulu aku byk bkorban, kade2 kompius dgn diri aku sndiri. Level idup aku bruboh, tapi aku tetap blh raso hepi slagi saim2 aku adow nga aku. Ibarat paku huk kemah dale dinding kayu, aku tetap akan pege kemah persahabatan aku, smpai aku tuo pun ore akan ingt jaso aku.

Sebagaimano mendale nyow ayat kiasan aku, sedale itu jgk la makno huk ptot sapa kepado pembaco. Selagi idup ni ditruskan, selagi adow insan2 huk sedia kongsi gapo2 nga kito, selagi tu la kito ptot menghargai. Tidok pyoh nok hargai jaso ore. Jgn duk blagok, jgn duk kato. Keno bringat sokmo, xdop soram pon atah dunio ni insan huk sempurna.

16th of February 2010

I'm going out with my family today. First stop, at my cousin house in Cherang. We are all invited to enjoy a simple breakfast there. I'm excitred today to enjoy the moments with my siblings. I'm afraid that I have to leave my phone because it is not functioning properly anymore.

After that, we are planning to go out shopping. I found this one perfet pant "Applemint". It is not a jeans but not a slack either. I'm excited to go shoppping!!!!

~ The Boy in the washed jeans ~

The boy in the washed jeans,
Stand alone where he has been,
Blank mind used to clouded with dreams,
No future, no promises,
Nothing more he brings.

The boy in the washed jeans,
Look up to the skies with his feet on the ground,
Breathing the slow breeze,
He felt hard to breath.

He put up his hands,
The empty hands with the future he holds,
The hopes that he folds,
Gasping and reaching out for his goal.

The hard time he face,
The disappointment he can't erase,
He keep being on the dream race,
The happiness that he can't trace.

As the time passes by,
The boy still standing on his feet,
He look beside him,
A calm and loving face is there,
She hold his hand,
Together they stand,
Together they will bring changes.

The disappointment washed away,
The hectic life become so much clear,
He kept her near,
They looked up the skies,
As they fly together,
He feels so much stronger,
The boy in the washed jeans,
Finally found victory,
Suddenly the chaos become history.

My Heart

I was young and stupid,
When I was hit by cupid,
Everything was idiotic,
My thoughts flew to the attic.

I felt loved,
I was pampered,
He is the only guy,
But is that it?

Then came the next boy,
After one and the other,
I can't keep my mind straight,
That's when I'm full of hatred.

I will never find "him",
Others call it true love,
But I always got screwed,
Well I don't think its true.

Each time I got broken,
Each time the faith is fallen,
My heart always spoken,
That there are chances,
Chances that can make me smile,
It came from hundreds mile,
There will be a rope of hopes,
It will bring me back,
I can have faith,
I can always try,
I wish I will never cry,
Every moment I did wrong,
He made me strong,
He wipe out my tears,
He will always be here.

~ Friendship ~

We know our friends,
We understand them well,
We fall while we stand,
We won't let our heart to swell.

Hope that it will last,
As we put it on past,
Starting everything new,
I love them, that's what I knew.

Jumping up and down,
Life seems so good,
They sometimes tear us apart,
It goes on my way,
As I try to getaway,
They are still here,
When I was in tears,
They are my friends,
From now, to the end.

Dissapointed

Feeling sorry and regret,
I can't let myself to forget,
Dissapointment is what I will get,
But I won't let myself to be trapped.

I think I get what I wanted,
But I was stranded,
I keep on falling away,
Letting myself to astray.

I have showed my love,
All the passion I have,
But I keep on walking,
Far away from I was standing.

Commitment is what I'm lacking,
I cant keep on running,
But I make myself clear,
That my love is pure.

I'm partially try to ensure,
But he was insecure,
From bad to worst,
I will always be here.

Boundaries

Opened up my eyes,
The sunrise shining through,
Hard to see, hard to breath,
Imagine how difficult life could be.

Sometimes I was wrong,
Can't tell that I was right,
Sometimes I was weak,
Can't keep my mind strike.

Other times I was broken,
I try to look strong,
Sometimes it can't be spoken,
For I am being wrong.

Sometimes I know,
Sometimes I pretend not to know,
Aware of my own sake,
I know that my words are fake.

I'm tired of telling stories,
When I know that it was histories,
Pretend that I was cherised,
For God's sake, I know my boundaries.

My Work

NEVER

Never, sounds a long duration,
It can stir up my emotion,
Never wanted to show,
Even its time to glow.

Few years has passed,
Never, still seems complicated,
I need to think fast,
As long as I can be dedicated.

I will never say never,
To the bright future,
To the things that are sure,
I can't be a loser.

I went to my bed,
With a thought in my head,
If I can make it work,
I might rule the world.

Minatku

Aku neh dari dulu suke sangat create poem. Poem yang agak xhebat neh diinspirasikan oleh orang paling dekat dengan hati aku. Ilham datang bila perasaan ini perlu diluahkan.

Dulu aku simpan sume poem aku lam satu buku. Buku neh ilang lepas aku cuti semester aritu. Lama gaks aku cari. Merata tempat aku tengok, tp ta jumpe. Tapi lucky me, masa aku kemas uma, aku terjumpa balik buku poem aku neh. So, aku nak kongsi ngan korang poem aku. Enjoy~

STANDING

Singing the love song alone,

Wondering how long I will be home,

The uncertain future is pale,

It makes me harder to inhale.

Emotions are running low,

I can feel my sorrow,

By watching the time flow,

I'm not sure what I know.

Listening to the miracle sound,

It give me some peace,

It bring myself to the ground,

The sound that bring me at ease.

I know I can fight,

Stand up when it gets hard,

Open up to see the light,

As long as I'm smart,

I know how to begin,

I realize I'm not losing,

In fact, I am still standing.

Cherish

The joyful feelings,

Happy hours that have meanings,

Having you would be fulfilling,

Being here with you is enjoying.

I can't see myself,

For who I really was,

You are my shelter,

You shine up my stars,

You makes my days,

From dull to enjoyable,

Bring me strength when I'm not able.

Cherish me, spoil me,

Have fun with me,

Shine right through me,

As long as you stay,

Our love won't be astray.

Five Kisses

Five kisses to show,

From first on the cheek,

Down to the fifth,

It all started with a kiss.

1st kiss on her cheek,

Brings up her smile,

She is not a hot chick,

Bring the joy from thousand mile.

2nd kiss on her forehead,

Show that he is one step ahead,

Loving him is the best thing,

It brings a whole new meaning.

Come to the 3rd kiss,

The one that she will miss,

A kiss on her hand,

She don't wants it to end.

Down to the 4th kiss,

He is the one she miss,

For he is her lover,

For now and forever.

Finally, the last kiss,

The kiss on her lips,

Makes her feel healed,

And both heart are sealed.