Coping.

I don't know where to start.
But he is totally different.
It didn't feels rite anymore.
It all started when he asked me out, I told him that I can't 'cause I wanna spend my precious moments with my precious sister.

It was on Friday.
Amy nak pegi UUM on Saturday night.
Dia cakap "kalo gitu jumpe bulan depan je" , I said "kite jumpe esk la, lps anta Amy", dia cakap die nak repair moto member lak. I said xpela, ade keje kan.
Then the best part, die cancel repair moto, sbb ade football match.

Skang aku paham la kedudukan aku lam priority die.
Tapi bile aku cakap layanla benda yg penting dulu, die marah.
Salah ea aku luah cmtu? Patot pendam je ek? Hurm...
Sepatotnye aku pendam je demi jage ati die.

Aku tak ske die marah² sbb die bkn jenis yang senang nek angin.
Last die cakap "mmg ayg xkn fhm aby, aby xkn dpt fhm ayg"..
Lepas few days ago die berubah, kuar jgk ayat ni dari die.

Aku da try kurangkan kontek die.
Aku ckp xnk ggu ble die ngan mmber².
Aku ckp aku xnk ggu die ngh repair moto.
Aku ckp kalo de pape, gtaw aku sbb aku akan tetap ade tuk die kalo die perlukan aku.

Aku slh cakap ke?
Aku xpatot try ubah ke utk keselesaan die?
Bile aku kurangkan, die ckp die xnak cmtu..
Skang die ckp aku xpaham die.

I don't know what else I should do.
I'm coping with the situation.
Situation where I'm unsure where I'm standing.

I've decided not to contact him until he does.
I'll try harder to understands him.
I'll shut up whenever he say something unpleasant.
I'll just sit here waiting for him to be the way he used to be.
I'll just...... wait.