.:. Not that it is not Important .:.

Well, I just want to say that I didn't get the TESL. Bummerrr. Yeah.
I am still unemployed. suupperrb. Yea~
I am actually envy every blogger that has awesome blog. (HUH?)
Okay, I am annoyed with my life. Fine~

I don't know if I'm too bored from doing nothing for the past few months, (jobless) or maybe I was just occupied with messiness in my head that was making me being like this. AWFUL~

I hate everything I see, read, smell or touch. Urgh! Maybe this is IT, one of the moments that people are having breakdown in life. I guess.

Or maybe I hate life because I couldn't do anything after knowing that I have slipped the only opportunity to keep doing what I love. English, studying the twists, the precious unheard words, the sentences that can make me have a goosebumps. The only subject that I love in life, the only things that I actually enjoy doing, writing short stories, open my notebook and write some ridiculuos poems. And now, knowing that I CAN'T learn more and deeply on it, it is DEVASTATING.

I hate my blog, by looking at it, I felt naseous, whats with the polca dot anyways? IDIOT. Its not cool at all.

p/s : I hate my life.

.Harapan & Kerja Sambilan. :)

UiTM da apply, so tunggu je keputusan nye, mitak-mitak ade rezeki untuk sambung blaja. Pastu taun dopan apply lagih ngan UPU, InsyaAllah dapat. Mood study blom abes lagih neh. Kursus-kursus yang aku pilih tu sume da ikowt kelayakan aku, kalo xdapat nak wat caner. Meanwhile, aku g job hunting with my bestfriend. Ade jugak aku pegi temuduga untuk keje tetap tapi tak diizinkan oleyh ayah aku. Die cakap kalo nak sambung blaja, keje part time je duluh, xyah nak keje2 serious sgt. Kalo xnak keje, dok je kat umah. So, macam ler aku neh suke dok terperuk kat umah mcm anak dara mithali kan? wahaha. Aku kua ler carik keje part time kat bandar KB.

Lam puluh2 jugak la jawatan kosong yang ade tapi ade yang ayah aku tak berkenan, bile ayah aku izin mama BFF aku plak yg tak berkenan. Last2 keje kat satu kedai neh, agak lebat gak ler gaji nye. Kalo keje lame, dapat elaun lagih. ahaks. InsyaAllah aku start keje arinih. Agak baik prihatin member aku sorang neh, SMS aku pepagi buta untuk ucap "Selamat Bekerja". HAHA. Ni ler untung nye ade kawan camnih, ade semangat cket aku nak g keje.

Mr. Nestum plak ok je skang neh walaupun masih ade lagih salah faham sane sini. Papepun, masih perlu cuba untuk memahami die. So ekah, ko jangan nak ego mengalahkan ego die plak. Kawan aku cakap, lam hubungan neh, kene SABAR, BERTOLAK ANSUR. Dua elemen nih ler yang aku agak kureng lam diri sendiri. PErlu belajar lagih. insyaAllah.

Jom pegi keje! Keje neh kire yang ketiga la aku wat part time. ahaks! Yeaay ME! :)

- A date with HIM -

Today I wanna go out with him again. AGAIN? yea~ 'cause yesterday I went out with him along with my bestfriend. We ate at some place, I forgot the name~

And today, we will be going to eat sup belut!!! My all time favorite. :)
And after that, he will help me with my scooter. Fix and put something in. Thank God I have my own foreman. :p

Neway, still waiting for his text..............
Can't wait to dive into the sup belut.. :)

The past and The future.

Today I met my precious Mr.Nestum, we ate "Sup Belut" and stuffed our belly with tasty dishes.
It is my last day seeing him, for now. I have to go to KL tomorrow for my convocation ceremony on 1st of OCT 2011 at PICC.
I felt a lift of a joy when I get the chance to meet him. I can feel his warmth and love from his sweet smile. The smile that reminds me how fortunate I am for having him in my life.

I asked his permission to have his ring. The ring which he always wore everyday. I wanna make it as a memorable token for my convo ceremony. And yes, as always, I'm missing him already.
I hope he will stay loyal when I'm gone. I give him my full respect for his patience, loyalty and faithfulness. Yes, I love him so much. :)

Enough said, I'm filling my bag with Baju Kurung. Right~ "Baju Kurung". A convenient wardrobe for a formal ceremony, which I never wore before. I HAVE to wear it on THE day.

That is the feed for 1st of OCT '11, I wanna share with you guys what happened on Mr.Nestum's birthday, he picked me up that day, and brought me to the mall. We walked around hand in hand, window shopping and apparently I cant resist myself when I spotted few nice shirts in PDI store. We bought 5 T-shirts. Two for him and three for me, (of course I got more).

Well, forward to my birthday, we didnt spend much time because we were far apart from each other. But we spoke for 24hrs that day. He always been there for me. Cherished me whenever I'm feeling down. And pull me to be more grounded when I forgot when I'm standing. When we met, exactly on 3rd of Syawal, he picked me up with his black car. And as soon as I'm in the car, making myself comfortable, wearing the sitbelt on, he said, "I came with a friend today". I wondered, there is no other human being in the car except us. I looked at the back sit and I saw this adorable BIG white and creamy teddy bear sitting there. I was like "OMG!!! A teddy bear!!"

And you know how that goes, "oh Hubby, you're so sweet! TQ" etc etc~

That was what happened for the past month. Our birthday. :)

Hari raya this year, we didnt get the chance to dressed up in our maroon outfit. And didnt have the chance to snap some pictures. T__T

But we went to few of our friend's openhouse. We stuffed our belly again (but he just ate a small porpotion of meals and started to smoke ciggarates) as ALWAYS~

I enjoyed staying home with my lovely sister, Amy. I miss her.
And now, I'm starting to shape up my own future. After my convocation ceremony, I hope I can take MUET and apply UPU to further studies in TESL. I know, the field is out of my diploma field. But somehow, I want to chase for what I love and carry on to satisfy my passion in English Literature. InsyaAllah.

Anyway, there will be lots more delay for the next entry. As ALWAYS. :)

Rajin bace, malas taip

da lme gaks ar kot aku xhapdet blog neh.
loads of stuff happened since last few months.
Happy Eid! Our birthdays! My posting moments.

Damn! now i've realized how fast time passes by.

White Lion's Lady by Tina St. John

An epic English novel based on English fiction, ventures through a journey with romantic, lust and exciting action between two forbidden love birds from different part of world.

An innocent young girl who fell in love with a future knight, grew up holding her dreams to meet up with her precious knight again. An honorable knight who once an abandoned baby, left from his maternal mother in front of a great ruling castle. Raised with full skill and honor.

Somehow, they met in an awkward positions where both are unfamiliar to each other, fought and spoke of curses. An exciting and mesmerizing beauty of their journey led to an astonishment.

I enjoy reading this book very much. Taken aback from the delicate English literature and their imaginations.

What would be my next book to read eyh?

- Ape ek -

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