- Dunia baru -

Suda lama kot tak hapdet ruangan maya neh.
So, where to begin.. ?
Banyak sangat yang dah berubah.
tapi yang penting, Alhamdulillah atas nikmat rezeki dikurniakan dariNya.

Aku dah dapat keje tetap kat Sunway medical Centre.
Tak kisa jadi cleaner pun. yang penting gaji halal. hehe

bile dah start kerja ni, semuanya pengalaman baru untuk aku.
bermastautin kat negeri orang. jumpa macam-macam ragam manusia.
benda baru yang diajar dan dipelajari.

aku janggal for the first 3 weeks.
tanpa TV, tanpa radio atau sebarang alat canggih komunikasi selain dari handphone nokia 3310 aku.
keinginan untuk balik kampung sangat tinggi.
tapi aku tabahkan hati sebab aku sedar, aku pikul harapan mak ayah aku.
mereka bersusah payah datang hantar aku sampai ke sini.
air muka gembira mereka bila aku dapat keje kat hospital ni. sangat bermakna bagi aku.

aku tanamkan niat untuk terus kekal di sini.
meninggalkan kekasih hati di sana.
meninggalkan rakan-rakan seakrab.
aku redha kerana aku mencari rezeki di sini.

gaji tak banyak tapi aku bersyukur dengan bonus yang menanti.
sekurang-kurangnya aku dapat bayar PTPTN, aku dapat kirim kat mak ayah walaupun sikit.
mak ayah aku tetap gembira. :)

Aku akan cuba untuk lebih bersabar.

Torn into pieces

Oh how I wish he knows.

How I wish he would understands.

Maybe this is the part when my sister said "Naah, you are just having one of those moments when you felt like you eager to do something and end up meaningless few days later"

But I think it is a great transformation.

And I don't think I have the courage to do so.

I am torn into pieces. I don't know which road to take.

What should I do nonetheless.

Mampukah?

Bila la aku nak keje nie ye? Tiap kali nak keluar menoreh, ujan lebat.

Keputusan permohonan UiTM belum dapat semak lagi. nebEss jugak.

Bila dah confirm keputusan tu, bole la decide wether keje tetap or sambung blaja.

So far hidup aku bosan!

Duit pun takde.

Aku nak beli enset baru, dah lame sangat kot aku pinjam En.Nestum nye fon.

Enset dulu 2x kene curik. Sony Ericson ngan Nokia C6.

Urggh! The losts. I miss my phones.

Aku arap dapat keje bulan depan. Please stop raining. T__T

.:. It has to be told .:.

Well, I can;t believe I'm going to say this

But do you recognise this?



YES.

I have a Twitter account.


After few years critisizing the potential and irritation of Twitter, I finnaly made an account.
Yea yea, I'm ***** yadayadayada~

I was tempted by the curiosity of my own. Can't blame it tho.
Follow me on Twitter, ekahAsri. :)

.:. Not that it is not Important .:.

Well, I just want to say that I didn't get the TESL. Bummerrr. Yeah.
I am still unemployed. suupperrb. Yea~
I am actually envy every blogger that has awesome blog. (HUH?)
Okay, I am annoyed with my life. Fine~

I don't know if I'm too bored from doing nothing for the past few months, (jobless) or maybe I was just occupied with messiness in my head that was making me being like this. AWFUL~

I hate everything I see, read, smell or touch. Urgh! Maybe this is IT, one of the moments that people are having breakdown in life. I guess.

Or maybe I hate life because I couldn't do anything after knowing that I have slipped the only opportunity to keep doing what I love. English, studying the twists, the precious unheard words, the sentences that can make me have a goosebumps. The only subject that I love in life, the only things that I actually enjoy doing, writing short stories, open my notebook and write some ridiculuos poems. And now, knowing that I CAN'T learn more and deeply on it, it is DEVASTATING.

I hate my blog, by looking at it, I felt naseous, whats with the polca dot anyways? IDIOT. Its not cool at all.

p/s : I hate my life.

.Harapan & Kerja Sambilan. :)

UiTM da apply, so tunggu je keputusan nye, mitak-mitak ade rezeki untuk sambung blaja. Pastu taun dopan apply lagih ngan UPU, InsyaAllah dapat. Mood study blom abes lagih neh. Kursus-kursus yang aku pilih tu sume da ikowt kelayakan aku, kalo xdapat nak wat caner. Meanwhile, aku g job hunting with my bestfriend. Ade jugak aku pegi temuduga untuk keje tetap tapi tak diizinkan oleyh ayah aku. Die cakap kalo nak sambung blaja, keje part time je duluh, xyah nak keje2 serious sgt. Kalo xnak keje, dok je kat umah. So, macam ler aku neh suke dok terperuk kat umah mcm anak dara mithali kan? wahaha. Aku kua ler carik keje part time kat bandar KB.

Lam puluh2 jugak la jawatan kosong yang ade tapi ade yang ayah aku tak berkenan, bile ayah aku izin mama BFF aku plak yg tak berkenan. Last2 keje kat satu kedai neh, agak lebat gak ler gaji nye. Kalo keje lame, dapat elaun lagih. ahaks. InsyaAllah aku start keje arinih. Agak baik prihatin member aku sorang neh, SMS aku pepagi buta untuk ucap "Selamat Bekerja". HAHA. Ni ler untung nye ade kawan camnih, ade semangat cket aku nak g keje.

Mr. Nestum plak ok je skang neh walaupun masih ade lagih salah faham sane sini. Papepun, masih perlu cuba untuk memahami die. So ekah, ko jangan nak ego mengalahkan ego die plak. Kawan aku cakap, lam hubungan neh, kene SABAR, BERTOLAK ANSUR. Dua elemen nih ler yang aku agak kureng lam diri sendiri. PErlu belajar lagih. insyaAllah.

Jom pegi keje! Keje neh kire yang ketiga la aku wat part time. ahaks! Yeaay ME! :)

- A date with HIM -

Today I wanna go out with him again. AGAIN? yea~ 'cause yesterday I went out with him along with my bestfriend. We ate at some place, I forgot the name~

And today, we will be going to eat sup belut!!! My all time favorite. :)
And after that, he will help me with my scooter. Fix and put something in. Thank God I have my own foreman. :p

Neway, still waiting for his text..............
Can't wait to dive into the sup belut.. :)

The past and The future.

Today I met my precious Mr.Nestum, we ate "Sup Belut" and stuffed our belly with tasty dishes.
It is my last day seeing him, for now. I have to go to KL tomorrow for my convocation ceremony on 1st of OCT 2011 at PICC.
I felt a lift of a joy when I get the chance to meet him. I can feel his warmth and love from his sweet smile. The smile that reminds me how fortunate I am for having him in my life.

I asked his permission to have his ring. The ring which he always wore everyday. I wanna make it as a memorable token for my convo ceremony. And yes, as always, I'm missing him already.
I hope he will stay loyal when I'm gone. I give him my full respect for his patience, loyalty and faithfulness. Yes, I love him so much. :)

Enough said, I'm filling my bag with Baju Kurung. Right~ "Baju Kurung". A convenient wardrobe for a formal ceremony, which I never wore before. I HAVE to wear it on THE day.

That is the feed for 1st of OCT '11, I wanna share with you guys what happened on Mr.Nestum's birthday, he picked me up that day, and brought me to the mall. We walked around hand in hand, window shopping and apparently I cant resist myself when I spotted few nice shirts in PDI store. We bought 5 T-shirts. Two for him and three for me, (of course I got more).

Well, forward to my birthday, we didnt spend much time because we were far apart from each other. But we spoke for 24hrs that day. He always been there for me. Cherished me whenever I'm feeling down. And pull me to be more grounded when I forgot when I'm standing. When we met, exactly on 3rd of Syawal, he picked me up with his black car. And as soon as I'm in the car, making myself comfortable, wearing the sitbelt on, he said, "I came with a friend today". I wondered, there is no other human being in the car except us. I looked at the back sit and I saw this adorable BIG white and creamy teddy bear sitting there. I was like "OMG!!! A teddy bear!!"

And you know how that goes, "oh Hubby, you're so sweet! TQ" etc etc~

That was what happened for the past month. Our birthday. :)

Hari raya this year, we didnt get the chance to dressed up in our maroon outfit. And didnt have the chance to snap some pictures. T__T

But we went to few of our friend's openhouse. We stuffed our belly again (but he just ate a small porpotion of meals and started to smoke ciggarates) as ALWAYS~

I enjoyed staying home with my lovely sister, Amy. I miss her.
And now, I'm starting to shape up my own future. After my convocation ceremony, I hope I can take MUET and apply UPU to further studies in TESL. I know, the field is out of my diploma field. But somehow, I want to chase for what I love and carry on to satisfy my passion in English Literature. InsyaAllah.

Anyway, there will be lots more delay for the next entry. As ALWAYS. :)

Rajin bace, malas taip

da lme gaks ar kot aku xhapdet blog neh.
loads of stuff happened since last few months.
Happy Eid! Our birthdays! My posting moments.

Damn! now i've realized how fast time passes by.

White Lion's Lady by Tina St. John

An epic English novel based on English fiction, ventures through a journey with romantic, lust and exciting action between two forbidden love birds from different part of world.

An innocent young girl who fell in love with a future knight, grew up holding her dreams to meet up with her precious knight again. An honorable knight who once an abandoned baby, left from his maternal mother in front of a great ruling castle. Raised with full skill and honor.

Somehow, they met in an awkward positions where both are unfamiliar to each other, fought and spoke of curses. An exciting and mesmerizing beauty of their journey led to an astonishment.

I enjoy reading this book very much. Taken aback from the delicate English literature and their imaginations.

What would be my next book to read eyh?

- Ape ek -

Bosan nye..
I love blogging but I'll blog whenever I feel like to...

You're the reason why..

We fight and we made up again.
'cause that is LOVE.

no more same arguments. please~
we love each other and that is THAT!

Today's Tribute.

Hurm, there is not a lot to talk about.

i miss him yet i'm broken.

i love him yet we're far apart.

what else should i do?

push him away is better than hurting him more and more in the future. rite?

maybe its because of the constant argument, made me feels like i'm nobody.

for the worst part, i think i'm losing myself.

is there more that i can do?

_i.need.new.blog.skin_

da bosan la skin neh.
ades, nak letak ape plak ea.
hurmmm~

Minah kemarau?

ape la plak anak spupu aku ni,
tetibe plak kua gelaran "minah kemarau"
kate nye, minah kemarau ni gelaran utk wanita2 yang berpakaian serba labuh..
ape la ek???

ape da jadik dgn pemahaman belia ni..
die tuh baru je form 2, peer pressure la ni kot.

bile org tanye, die cakap "org bandar mmg camni Che' ekah".
amboi, ko ingt aku ni org kampung ke?
lepas perdebatan utk mnyedarkan beliau, beliau nampak mcm da paham da cket psl duniawi ni.

dgn bantuan ustazah Nik Ain, selaku sepupu rapat aku, berjaya la kami bg penjelasan kat die.
penat tol!
arap die da xlyn da sume ni.
maklumla, bdk tgh nak maju.

plak tu, die post status kat fb, sume bende2 branded,
post gmbo brg2 branded.
letak name Pavillion time, aduiii...
kdg2 cara tu da mcm nyah pown ade, xpaham tol la.

xpelah, tu tnggungjawab mak ayah die la plak nk wat ape.
parent ade fb, leh pantau da anak die. huhu. ^^

_taboleyhtido_

ye ye, mmg skang dah kul 3pagi,
tapi aku xley tdo~
ni la akibat bile teguk nescafe 2 gelas.
tido plak dr tgh ari smpai maghrib.
solat x sbb..........................

tnggu en.nestum smpai umh
katenye kua ngn kwn2 round KL.
xley nk kontek plak sbb bateri die abes
sempat je die paw enset mmber die anto msg kat aku.
Cumil~

yer yer, kul 3pg, die pn xbalik rmh lg.
merendek knl tmpt la katekan.
xpela, esk die xkeje.. hehe

*en.nestum kol da. adei. kne bebel xtdo lg time ni. owg tnggu die =.="*

NITEZ u'ollz~

_Ketentuan itu_

merindui yang kejauhan,
mencintai yang sudah pasti,
menempuhi dengan penuh ketabahan,
mengamati hidup penuh erti.

da mule da mood poetic ni.
da lame x reka poem baru kan?
hurm....
ilham neh datang kjap2 je,
skali *tink!* ade idea, trus tulis.
dulu2 slalu lepak blakang pelangi mall petang2, sekadar amek angin,
pen, buku msti ade lam tgn sbb slalunye time tu la ayat2 tu dtg.

skang plak ase sedey bile en.nestum da seminggu lebey berada dikejauhan.
semalam die gtaw berita yg baik+buruk bg kitorg.
die ckp, kontrak keje die dpt smbung smpai setahun.
so, die akn jd warga kl tu for few more months. +_+

aku xtaw nak respon camane,
tp aku bsyukur sbb die dimurahkan rezeki.
tp sedey bile tmbah lame xdpt jumpe die.
die pn cam berat hati nk gtaw,
die phm aku xsuke die dok jauh.

tp aku tetap hepi utk die dan sokong die dr blkng.

sajak ke ape atas tu ek?
aku pown da lupe.
tp aku suka kumpulkan kata2, yg mmberi kesimpulan perasaan.
sesape yg phm poem atas tu, kongsi2 la ea pndpt awk. hehe.

p/s : blog aku ni mmg da mcm blog syok sdiri. pnuh gmbr aku je.
xde art lngsung. haha
aku mmg xkreatif. kalo xske, sowiey ea! :p

Another new header????

blog aku da jadik blog org yg syok sendiri je neh.
haha.
tapi xkesa ler, da puas ati neh ngedit gmbo!
demam dinner punye pasal! =]

.Masquerade Night.

Pengalaman yang paling best jadi pengacara mlm tu..

Jocker jadik co-host aku. ngeh2.

Aktiviti yang best mlm tu,

- Nyanyian duet Bella ngan Dahlila -
(Power vokal dua org neh!)

- Laju je Hartila naek pentas amek adiah-
hiks ^^

- King and Queen of Masquerade Night -

- Duet lagi Azuanti ngan dot dot dot, (lupe la nme dak junior neh) -


- Nyanyian lagih! berkumpulan, lagu Gemilang ase nye -


- Cultured performance -

- Fashion Show -

- Student award (Dean list and top student) -

Nak tahu nape 4 orang ni dipanggil nek ke pentas?
Sbb aku ngan Jocker kenekan diorg.
Jadi Pemberita bertopeng 4. hehe

(Jangan tengok jari tengah yang aku TERsalah angkat tu!!!)

1st, aku tawarkan produk ni sape yg nak aku mtk diorg naik ke pentas..
and thennn..







kalo nak adiah ni, promote dlu produk tu kat sume org.. wakakaka..
sonok kenekan membe aku neh!

Kenangan................

Ini aku pown xtaw mase ane Naimi snap. hahaha.




- DHC 0804 -

Sempat la posing sakan atas Red Carpet ni. hihi.
(Lighting je lebey ni) lalala~

*sorry ye Cik Nasihah sbb da kenekan ko mlm tu. hehe. we had fun right!*

ke KL lagik~

lom sempat lg nk abeskan spnuh mse ngn en.nestum, die tpakse pi kL lg. :(
aku relakan je, die pn brt ati nk tinggl aku.
die g pown cari rezeki.
semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan die dan berkati perjalanan die.

ble lak dpt jmpe ngn die.. hurmm..
xpela, aku doakan yg terbaik tok die.
have a safe trip aby. :(